I remember . . .

I remember when we used to take tons of pictures . When we constantly wasted so much money at wa wa eating everything bagels and cin raise . When I asked you to marry me at the beach down by the swing . When we first kissed . I remember when I told you that there was nothing more in the world than I wanted to have a family with you . I remember everything we've ever been through . Since age 12 to present . 311 ! Every single moment spent with you is remembered and will never be forgotten . I have been in the wrong as well as you have , but you're right . I was wrong . I can't sleep at night ( hence why I'm always up for 24 hours at a time ) . You're all I think about . All I care for . Nothing and no one else besides my family is even close to being 1/1000000 as important as you are in my life . I'm not mad about what's going on . I guess you could say I'm disappointed . In the both of us . But me especially . That kid that you "fell head over heels" for is real and you know he is . I'm sorry to say the least . I hope when I see you soon I won't die of a heart attack even though that's what will most likely happen . But hey , at least we share what we once did in my dreams every night . I miss you . If there will never be an us again , in 5 days , 5 months , 5 years , 50 years . I will never forget you , never go a day without thinking about you and us for a split second . You're the best thing that has ever happened to me and I wouldn't pick any other girl in the world to be the mother of my child . The least of my worries is if you will be a good mother or not . I know you will be the best mother in the world . I'm proud of you . I'm extremely proud of you . And even if this sounds dumb . I'm proud of you for doing what you think is best for you and the child . Although I may disagree , I still understand where you're coming from . Remember , you're never alone and my love will never die out . I love you . Always and forever . <3 B